“Interesting Realization”
My last post was a therapeutic post. It was a message from me to myself. In fact, that is one of the few reasons i started writing blogs. Many of the examples jumped right out of my own life. For example, me treating friends lunch in fancy Bella Italia in the same month i had to forgo buying much needed furniture at home. Its been well over two months and my living room still has only the bare essentials..minus curtains :s. Another example of “my pursuit of funness” is me smoking while i’m on trips with friends. I do not smoke otherwise. It is only when i am with friends having “fun” that i like to smoke one or two.
I thought that maybe i just need to write it down. Maybe if i see it in print it will prompt me to take action. Maybe. And so i did. But while i was writing them down, something kept me from disclosing the person i am really talking about. I thought, that i really do not need to disclose the person. It should be enough to just document the problems and faults and the situation. The printed faults would suffice in propelling me to fix whatever needs to be fixed.
Its funny how i can repeat my past behavior even when i am fully aware of its faults. Its funny how i cannot even face my problems and document it here forever. If it scares me to read my faults in my own blog, then how is it that i can expect myself to work on this realization for a better future?
But a certain comment of a certain friend hit me with an interesting realization. There is a fine line of difference between realizing the problems of life that plague us and the problems that plague ME in particular. And the moment i can separate the two and shed light on them individually is the moment i will be able to correct every problem, at first on an individual level and then on a group level and maybe someday on a global level!
So here i go!
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